I call him, called him like 40 times last week, he never picked up the phone. He was my closest friend, it hurts, cause I happen to always think the worst. I think he's avoiding me, he loves me but I irritate him. I'm sure I don't but that's how I feel, I miss talking to him, I look at my phone, no missed calls, he never calls back. I always need someone to talk to, he has a job now, maybe that is the reason, but if that is the way I'm goin to be when I get a job, I don't want it. I think I'm grown, but I really am not, I'm a baby, I need attention, I want attention but at the same time I hate attention, cause that is when people think of me, and I don't know what they think of me. It's frustrating. Because I love fashion, I don't hide the way I feel, I don't fight, I love taking care of my body, I'm not amused by any girl that passes my way. I'm a girl?!?! Fuck that!!! I'm tired of being called a girl, just because I'm different, because when I see a Unconditional sweater I fall in love, because it's very hard for a girl to impress me.
I'm me and the hate me, I'm D but they dislike D, I'm unique but they despise unique.
Much Love, D
